frustration

I need to do my work properly, else I become a lot of frustrated, and a sense of defeat sets in. Wherein, it feels that I am not fit enough for this. And really, maybe that is the case.

Life is such a complex activity that I cannot handle it cleanly. It is a lot of pressure.

It comes up heavy on my brain, and my poor little brain cannot handle it.

Life involves so many things - you have to get up, get ready, eat, go to office, office involves so so many tasks, then you have to take care of your lunch, you have to take care of relationships within the workplace, you have to take care of your dinner in the night, you've to pay bills, you've to remember so many things and keep track of so many things - you have to take care of so many people - and you have to take care of yourself, you have to remember to pick up the tickets, file for vacation, wash your clothes, cook food, purchase groceries, call up friends, call up relatives, clean your house, maintain your house with so many chores, you have to keep track of world news, you have to keep track of technology news, you have to keep learning in your job, you have to take care of a lot of people when you get married, you have to remember so many tasks and activites daily that are so easy to forget, you have to take care of so many chores which are necessary for yourself - you have to keep your academic records organized, you have to maintain legal status, for which you need to keep track of legal rules, visa, etc; you have to rest, now I havent even mentioned the desires yet, you have to read books, you have to see movies, you have to meet friends, you have to hang out, you have to visit places, you have to do activities, ..... i believe i didnt even count half of what actually happenns.

Utopia would be a place where you do what you want to, whenever you want to.

Does this smell like freedom is utopia? It shouldnt be.