Interview with myself

If somebody asks me these questions, these will be my answers:

Q) So hey, what are you trying to do?
A) I am trying to prove I am smart.

Q) You make friends and relationships for what? Growing up together, supporting each other, learning from each other, or sharing cultural memes?
A) I make friends and relationships in order to get "approval" for myself, and to have somebody who thinks that I am smart.

Q) You ask questions and discuss issues and concepts with others. Do you do thatt we understand life and world better, and then we can together live life better, and more happily?
A) I discuss and debate in order to get approval from others that I am smart.

Q) Do you do anything other than trying to prove to others that you are smart?
A) No.

Q) Come on. You must be doing something else... like working towards your life path, enhancing your life impact and effect for feeling the sense of growth, helping out your family, etc.?
A) Everything that I do is for proving that I am smart.

Q) Should you advise anybody to be your friend or in some relationship with you?
A) No. I should be dumped out of the world.

Q) Is that what the world is doing to you right now?
A) It is trying to, but failing. I hope it succeeds.

Q) Do you think you will become better? (OR what is the diagnosis and prognosis of this?)
A) I am dumb & dull, which caused social rejection, which effectively resulted me dropping into the "Show that I am smart" attitude. And my broken relationships caused me to be unsatisfied and unclear on my sexual instincts, which has further instilled masochistic tendencies into me (these are somehow indirectly related to sexual pleasure). And now these masochistic tendencies give me pleasure on hurting myself in all kinds of ways -- continuing to be in "act smart" attitude is one strong example of this....(since acting smart makes me fail in all kinds of relationships). I think these tendencies will continue to hurt me unto my death.