decisions, dilemmas in choices

I am caught between two personality types -- the conservative, family-type traditional personal, and the independent thinker.

They contrast sharply.

I dont know where I need to go -- what I really am -- where my happiness really lies.

Now that I have to choose a girl to marry -- I might have to decide. As always, the positives and negatives appear on both paths.

American or Indian? Academic or Business? Family or Friends? Traditional or thinker? Conserve or liberate? Oriented towards the past, or the future? Oriented towards Self or Others?

Others dont think about these issues. Their personality is made from heaven, and they know exactly what they are -- they dont think before they behave, they behave spontaneously.

The biggest hurdle in my life as regards to marriage, is the choice between these attitudes. Because these choices will heavily impact the choice of my to-be-wife, and the continued happiness of marital life....

It would probably have been better, if I didnt even have to think about these choices. Ummmm...or maybe not? Another dilemma..!

-Gaurang.