background is what matters

Hmm. One more thing I understood today.

At work, I was suddenly thinking why I am having trouble being like a normal company person -- who collaborates, who finds job in just being able to work properly, and progress in work, and improve job profile, etc.

I was having problems communicating, and collaborating with people.

In paypal, I was having problems with too many americans, and here at Cisco I was having problems with too many Indians...

Then the problem must not be in the environment, but somewhere in me.

Today I found that problem.

The problem is in my background.

I was in a family which was rich, and my father ran his own business where several dozen people worked under him. All my relatives also have their own business. So basically, my background and culture is for business stuff, where I am the owner and I command and manage other people. Here, as a person doing a job in America, I was supposed to be one of dozones of employees, taking orders from a manager, and collaborating and growing with peers -- which is totally a different environment.

My mind was not meant for this, and thus I was having trouble with this.

However, after knowing this, I can now train my mind to look at myself as a professional level employee, and forget my background. one thing I do well, is to manipulate my unconscious.

I think, now my workplace's innate happiness has already increased.

Learn to recognize yourself, and you might become happier.

:)

[ As I wrote on my thought blog -- Our future is an extrapolation of your past.

But, once you know this, then you can try to break this extrapolation -- it works -- but to keep note is that this is only on the surface, since the breaking of that extrapolation was also just an extrapolation. ]