hello

i ran after this
i ran after that
in this race of superiority,
in this race of proving yourself,
in this race of getting ahead,
in this race of this, in this race of that,

i am now tired.

I now want to sit, relax and say hello to people around me.

[ofcourse this habit of writing to blogs and maintaining a website will be the toughest narcissistic habit that I will have tocrack, it might turn out to be the last one that I crack - it will be tough -- i will have to create a very supportive, nurturing and emotionally fulfilling environment directly around me which will give me the will power to rejoice and enjoy in the present rather than talking to this invisible and non-present reader for emotional feedback]