another attempt at problems and solutions

--- thinking about what others are thinking of me, and then either thinking too highly of myself because there will be feelings of awe in them for me -- - or thinking too lowly of myself because there will be negative feelings in them for me. One giving superiority complex and other giving inferiority complex. Both are bad. I need to learn to just be happy instead of keeping on comparing myself with others.

The mantra being --

"I am ok. You are ok. We both are trying to live a good life here."

I should be able to tone down these feelings even though I will not be able to solve the nihilistic component of the problem.

feeling highly doesnt cause a lot of problems, though feeling lowly does cause.

So basically I am tacking two problems here ---
-- one of feeling very lowly, and thus feeling very depressed and feeling worthless. Extreme low self-esteem
-- nihilism, where I am finding no reason to do anything, and finding everything pointless.

The extreme low self-esteem problem should be targetted first. The nihilism problem will persist, only I should learn to live with it, or invent a hack to get around it. But I cannot deny nihilism here.

The extreme low self esteem though might go, if I improve my thought flow.

The thought flow should not keep revolving in the head, and must efficiently flow. For example, I must not keep thinking about the same things again and again. And must learn to let thoughts flow, and pass.

So --- action points ---

1. let thoughts flow and pass, dont let them accumulate. So that I can acheive better task execution
   
2. using task execution powers gained by the last point, finish all tasks, and feel good about yourself. finish all that you want to do. use these 24 hours to accomplish all what I want to do. If all is not possible, then schedule and prioritize them.
   
3. believe in "I am OK. You are OK. We are all here for finding happiness." mantra.
   
4. after these 3 points are executed, feel better about yourself, and thus counter extreme low self esteem that I have been finding.
   
5. concentrate on people and relationships, ask for help and support and also provide it thus creating mutual friendships and mutual groups for emotional support and growth.
   
6. after the relationships problem is solved, find habits that I like to do, so I feel good about myself, and feel growth
   
7. after these things are done, maybe I wont have time to pay attention or importance to nihilism. I will have to learn to avoid thinking about it.