thoughts as a means for ego

I live in thoughts. I cant communicate properly. I cannot express myself. I cannot connect with myself. In other words, a complete looser with life.

But, my ego says that I possess "thoughts". Not that they are very good or marvellous something, but they are the only thing I have. So it is not ready to come out of it. My mind keeps thinking. Thinking. Maybe it feels its own existence manifested in it. It can obtain its sense of identity and a presence only from these thoughts, since other things in life have been stifled and are just unable to grow and nurture normally.

So it wants to keep a record of it, and wants to show it to others. Hence this and the other blog.