wanting acceptance and recognition and attention

if people give me some sort of attention - like praise me, like me, sympathasize with me, or something like that, I feel good. I feel that I exist. My ego is stroked. Because otherwise I have a lower sense of ego. I tend to do a lot of self-sacrifice and have masochistic tendencies, which hurt "me" and myself. Thus I unconsciously resort to other avenues to feel the sense of ego - like wanting people to praise me or sympathize with me.

But basically it is just a ball game of attention and self-defeating acts. Pure NPD. Pure madness.