going blank

Sometimes I will just stare blankly at empty space...and my thoughts will keep revolving around one tiny thing. Mostly about what people think about others. Mostly about taking decisions - if I take this decision then what will people think about me, what image will they have of me, if I do that, then? Mostly they are frustrations. Since I cannot act immediately in present time, because of my absent-mindedness or a very slow brain, many of the actions that I actually do are not what I really wanted to. So I recall situations, and think - if I would have done this, then they would have thought of me as a better person - and then I go on imagining pairs of my actions and their reaction to that in terms of formations of an image of me, and thats it.

This is it.

These kinds of thoughts, keep revolving around my brain, and almost bring my brain to a paralysis.

And these has become such a normal thing, that I very often tend to go into this state. And then I have to tell myself to come out to this real world.

But at other times, when I am in the present, and happy, I tend to behave quite normally; though, I cant make anyone believe that I am completetly normal? You will always find quirkyness, absent-mindedness, etc even when I am in the "normal" mode. But this is still bearable, and that much quirkiness is fine.

And yes one more thing - I noticed this - "going into a blank state" behavior during my 7th std. I dont know why. I suddenly started liking to think and started going to blank states.

Now lets get back to work. :)