Solving problems

I appear to be enjoying these problems, and seem to be not doing anything to solve them. I am just observing. This is because of dissociation from reality. I tend to become an observer and not a participant in life, causing to dissociate from reality and not being able to generate any desires, emotions, or actions.

This might be my inherent tendency (due to dissociative disorder as I mentioned in a previous post) or may be due to constant social rejection.

This dissociation makes me not want to make any effort and induces laziness.

And it makes me enjoy dissociation because I dont have to do any work to please people or do as people say.

But I will trying to generate the will power to solve these problems and really try to improve, since I feel that I am loosing on all aspects of life.

-Gaurang.