Liked by others

I dont think I am likeable by anybody else. That is because I have a history of not being liked.

And these two things support and reinforce each other.

So: trying to get others to like me becomes my driving force. But since internally I believe that I am unlikeable, these attempts fail faster.

Whenever this attempt fails for the nth time, I withdraw from social conversation at that point and start becoming an observer.

Whenever you find that I have become just an observer to a conversation, understand that I have just failed yet again, and have realized that I am unlikeable.