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This blog is not linked from elsewhere on the site. This is a personal diary, where I will write things I wouldnt usually want to tell others. Based on introspection, they are a result of my struggle to cope up with my huge internal problems. For my worldly picture, look at my website and/or my other blog.

There are 5 connotations of the name "/me": 1. In IRC chat, when you want to type in a message that is something about you, you type in "/me (message)". This blog is something like that. 2. "/me" signifies me standing alone on one side of the "slash", and the rest of the world on the other side. I have come alone to my own personal private space and am writing about myself. 3. It indicates the URL of the blog - the main site name followed by "/me". 4. It indicates the path location in the unix directory tree. 5. Simply that the blog is about me.

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Name:Gaurang
Location:Fremont, California, United States

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Tuesday, August 03, 2004

day to day 1

my day to day behavior has become quite bad - I always have this fear: "I am not normal"; "I do not belong here"; "I wont be able to cope up with the group"; "I will never be a normal part of the group"; "I have failed in life"; "I can never cope up with life"; "I will be outcast and always be so", etc.

sometimes though, I become happy, and then these things dont matter. I then get a lot of drives, mostly related to why I and other people are the same entity - all people's emotions are my emotions, and mine are theirs. At this point, I usually drop individual boundaries, and try to come close to people. (Whereas in the above other mood, I was trying to run away from people as much as I can.) I like this mood. Belonging to people, and feeling they are all one is a nice feeling.


posted by Gaurang | 7:16 PM  

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