Conversation with XYZ at 2004-12-02 16:01:14 on grkhetan@hotmail.com (msn)
(16:01:14) XYZ: Hi.
(16:01:20) XYZ: I just finished final exam.
(16:01:23) Gaurang: whats up dude...
(16:01:25) Gaurang: which course
(16:01:29) XYZ: cs585
(16:01:33) Gaurang: finished all course exams this sem...?
(16:01:35) XYZ: database (mcleod)
(16:01:51) XYZ: yeah..pretty much since the other course is english and no exam.
(16:02:06) XYZ: what's up?
(16:02:26) Gaurang: hahhaah
(16:02:28) Gaurang: english :)
(16:02:38) Gaurang: still?
(16:02:41) XYZ: yeah..-_-..but
(16:02:44) Gaurang: technical writing or something?
(16:03:03) XYZ: it's different since 6 more students in the group are taking the course. :)
(16:03:17) XYZ: eng501
(16:03:30) Gaurang: :)
(16:03:37) Gaurang: and whats up mannn...
(16:03:39) Gaurang: how are you...
(16:03:41) Gaurang: how is the lab...
(16:03:44) Gaurang: how is work...
(16:03:49) Gaurang: how is romance...;)
(16:04:18) XYZ: hmmm. in a nutshell.
(16:04:23) XYZ: all suck. -_-..
(16:04:56) XYZ: btw, you're not fired yet?
(16:05:33) Gaurang: heheh
(16:05:39) Gaurang: whats that?
(16:05:41) Gaurang: :)
(16:05:57) XYZ: hmmmmm...it's astonishing. hahe
(16:06:01) Gaurang: why ... man
(16:06:19) XYZ: cuz....
(16:06:27) XYZ: you're a delta function!!!
(16:07:24) Gaurang: whats a delta function...
(16:07:28) Gaurang: please tell me...
(16:07:37) Gaurang: bcuz i have been actually fired...:(
(16:07:53) XYZ: what??
(16:07:57) Gaurang: yeah...
(16:08:04) XYZ: huh...
(16:08:15) Gaurang: but i think this time the causes were different...
(16:08:21) Gaurang: i was depressed
(16:08:30) XYZ: hmmm. sorry to hear that..
(16:08:33) Gaurang: i was unmotivated and all crap
(16:08:33) XYZ: where are you then?
(16:08:46) Gaurang: i am here in the bay area only ... with my brother...
(16:08:57) Gaurang: i am looking for a new job
(16:09:07) XYZ: hmm...
(16:09:24) XYZ: your philosophical problem again..
(16:09:34) Gaurang: hmmmm
(16:09:47) Gaurang: i became philosophically unmotivated
(16:10:03) Gaurang: and also i became depressed, bcuz i was feeling very alone
(16:10:17) Gaurang: and i was not able to make friends...
(16:10:23) Gaurang: all americans in the company
(16:10:24) Gaurang: no indians
(16:10:33) XYZ: hey. it's not the first time. You've been there so you know the answer. right?
(16:10:40) XYZ: hmmmm..
(16:11:07) Gaurang: hmmm ... now i remember.. i was thinking too much ...
(16:11:21) Gaurang: during my time at Lab only...
(16:11:32) XYZ: hmm...well.
(16:11:34) Gaurang: what should i do man
(16:11:41) Gaurang: what is your advise
(16:11:56) XYZ: well...
(16:12:14) XYZ: do the phd....
(16:12:28) XYZ: or maybe your brother can help you.
(16:12:34) Gaurang: hmmm
(16:12:40) Gaurang: how do you motivated yourself for the job?
(16:12:51) XYZ: my motivation is....
(16:12:56) XYZ: desperation...-_-..
(16:13:03) XYZ: or...
(16:13:25) XYZ: try to transform your eager to woman to the study..
(16:14:03) XYZ: I don't know why you couldn't have friends in the company..
(16:14:31) XYZ: your mother tongue is english..at least.
(16:14:41) Gaurang: i was very depressed... i dont know... i was thinking too much.. i was thinking...why would they want to talk to me... and all..
(16:14:49) Gaurang: it was just a big change in environment
(16:15:12) XYZ: hmmmm...was the salary is the reason of your depressoin?
(16:15:23) Gaurang: not at all
(16:15:33) XYZ: money is good motivation.
(16:15:43) Gaurang: hmmm... i think relationships were some problems...
(16:15:52) XYZ: with your boss..?
(16:15:52) Gaurang: i was not able to develop good relationships...
(16:16:00) Gaurang: with everybody in the company...
(16:16:03) Gaurang: the people were good
(16:16:14) Gaurang: i was not able to talk very nicely...
(16:16:24) XYZ: hmm...it's weird..then. I didn't see any human relation probelm in you before.
(16:16:34) Gaurang: there was a big problem man..
(16:16:38) Gaurang: a big internal problem..
(16:16:43) XYZ: what?
(16:16:50) Gaurang: that only...
(16:17:14) Gaurang: i used to think - why would people want to talk to me...
(16:17:24) XYZ: huh...
(16:17:27) Gaurang: and i was under very low self-esteem problems...
(16:17:32) XYZ: does PQR or STU know about this?
(16:17:40) Gaurang: thats why to counter that i used to euphoric at times...
(16:17:48) XYZ: euphoric....
(16:17:50) Gaurang: no..
(16:17:57) XYZ: shall i talk to them?
(16:18:03) Gaurang: be very excited and enthusiastic ...
(16:18:09) XYZ: mayby the indian friends know better answer.
(16:18:21) Gaurang: yeah ... i would want to talk with PQR....
(16:18:37) XYZ: i know that word...I just mean that...you're using upscale word..
(16:18:37) Gaurang: i will forward this conversation log to him...
(16:18:48) XYZ: ok.
(16:18:57) Gaurang: come on... you know man... i know that ... you are taking an english class
(16:18:59) Gaurang: ;)
(16:19:16) XYZ: I'll let them know and let them call you.
(16:19:17) Gaurang: so how are you doing ...
(16:19:26) XYZ: actually not good to me.
(16:19:36) XYZ: my situation is not better than yours.
(16:19:41) Gaurang: dont let STU know ... i will talk with PQR..
(16:19:41) XYZ: almost similar.
(16:19:44) Gaurang: hahah
(16:19:46) Gaurang: what happenned
(16:19:47) XYZ: okay.
(16:19:57) XYZ: i'm depressed too.
(16:20:06) Gaurang: why ...
(16:20:08) Gaurang: you can tell me
(16:20:35) XYZ: I don't know.
(16:20:45) XYZ: but the course works are almost over.
(16:20:53) XYZ: and it's time to generate the paper
(16:21:02) XYZ: but didn't find the good topic yet.
(16:21:15) XYZ: that's the reason, i guess.
(16:21:50) Gaurang: thesis?
(16:21:55) XYZ: Nope.
(16:22:01) XYZ: conference paper stuff
(16:22:15) Gaurang: you can ofcourse take advise of the professor
(16:22:17) XYZ: i gotta to. sorry. the english course is on time.
(16:22:21) Gaurang: ok ok
(16:22:33) Gaurang: the best way to solve problems is to talk with people...
(16:22:34) XYZ: perk up a little bit , dude.
(16:22:35) Gaurang: :)
(16:22:41) Gaurang: you should talk to everybody ...
(16:22:45) Gaurang: yeah...
(16:22:45) XYZ: ok. ditto to you.
(16:22:50) XYZ: yeah. see you.
(16:22:51) Gaurang: all the bst
(16:22:52) Gaurang: bye
(16:22:55) XYZ has closed the conversation window.